Invictus is the Latin word for unconquered. It is also the name of a poem written in 1875 and published in 1888 by William Ernest Henley. I have constantly found myself coming back to this poem for inspiration, and it has brought me light during my darkest hour.


Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.



I was doing some folder maintainence on my computer and I stumbled across this folder which was my music from middle school to high school. It had some really interesting artistes, but the one that captured my attention the most was Enigma.

Enigma is a music project that was started by Michael Cretu in the early 90’s and has some sensational music that was way ahead of its time. It was especially entertaining for me because I have always found mystical music intriguing.
I started listening to the first album – MCMXC a.D.,and came across a song called Sadeness. It is a sensual track with an insistent beat based around “questioning” the sexual desires of Marquis de Sade.

Marquis de Sade was born in France in 1970, and was a French aristocrat and philosopher, and a writer. He believed in unrestrained freedom, unbound by laws of government, religion, or morals, with pursuit of personal happiness at the top. During his lifetime he was sent to prison and an insane asylum many a time for his rather violent novels with inclusion of pornography. The world knows him best as sadism, which was derived from his name.

Below are the song lyrics (and the meaning, for those readers who don’t follow Latin and French)

Procedamus in pace In nomine Christi, Amen Let us go forth in peace
In the name of Christ, So be it

Cum angelis et pueris, fideles inveniamur We shall find the faithful in the
company of angels and children

Attollite portas, principes, vestras et elevamini, portae aeternales et introibit rex gloriae Qius est iste Rex glorie?
Lift up ye heads o ye glorious gates,
and be ye lifted up ye everlasting doors,
and the king of glory shall come in.
Who is the king of glory?

Sade, dis-moi, Sade, donnes-moi Sade tell me
Sade give me

Procedamus in pace In nomine Christi, Amen Shall we proceed in peace
In the name of Christ, Amen

Sade, dis-moi Qu’est-ce que tu vas chercher? le Bien par le Mal la Vertu par le Vice Sade, dis-moi, Pourquoi l’evangile du Mal? Quelle est ta religion, Ou sont tes fideles? Si tu es contre Dieu, tu es contre l’Homme Sade tell me
what is it that you seek?
The rightness of wrong
The virtue of vice
Sade tell me why the Gospel of evil ?
What is your religion? Where are your faithful?
If you are against God, you are against man

Sade dit moi pourquoi le sang pour le plaisir ? Le plaisir sans l’amour. N’y a t’il plus de sentiment dans le culte de l’homme ? Sade tell me why blood for pleasure?
Pleasure without love?
Is there no longer any feeling in man’s Faith?

Sade, es-tu diabolique ou divin?
Sade are you diabolical or divine?

Sade, dis-moi Hosanna Sade, donnes-moi Hosanna Sade, dis-moi Hosanna Sade, donnes-moi Hosanna
Sade tell me
Sade give me
Sade tell me
Sade give me

In nomine Christi, Amen
In the name of Christ, Amen

I got really curious and checked out the video on youtube. It’s not like it had a plethora of special effects (then again, the video was made in the early 90’s.) but it was rich with symbolism. The video shows a scholar, possibly a reference to Marquis de Sade, who falls asleep at a desk in his room whilst writing … and has a fantastic, seductive, and enlightening dream. The scholar finds himself wandering among cathedral ruins. He comes up to Auguste Rodin‘s The Gates of Hell, which is probably the “Forbidden Door”, according to the album concept. As the young man looks on, he sees a beautiful young woman beyond it. She whispers the main lyric to him in a seductive tone – “Sade, dis-moi” “Sade, donne-moi” or translated- “Sade, tell me” “Sade, give me”. The man turns and tries to flee, but relents to his desires and is “sucked” back through the door. At this point, the young man wakes from the dream and looks around anxiously, but finds only a light from his window shining down on him.

A good musical project, with some really deep music. More on Enigma later.